Walking home from a new friend’s (amazing, HUGE) house in St. Julian’s with Leslie, one of the two girls who live on my street who I’ve come to become close with, we talked.
Conversations have the potential of becoming pretty deep while walking from place to place here, as walking is our prime mode of transportation. Which is great, I love it. It’s nice not to have to drive everywhere, and be stuck with all the annoyances that come with having a car.
Anyway, on this particular night, one topic that came up was our zodiac signs. I wouldn’t say I rely heavily on my zodiac sign and what it says about me, but I definitely find truths in myself when reading its descriptions.
Les is a leo. It is the most dominant sign. She has a strong personality, and is very extroverted. She and her roommate, Jen, both happen to be leos. They are both such great people to know and live by, because they’re assertive. They’re not the type to just sit around and waste the time that they have in this amazing place. They’ve done so much exploring and wandering, that they’re very familiar with directions and streets and routes. They’re not shy when it comes to meeting new people. These are all things that I hope will rub off on me.
I’m an aquarius. Les said that I’m creative, at times stubborn, and I analyze EVERYTHING. Which couldn’t be more true. I worry too much. I worry too much about what others think of me. I say sorry far too often, and a lot of times for things I have completely no control over, or things that were blatantly the fault of someone else. I place guilt on myself almost instinctually in every situation. I analyze every word, every gesture, every aspect of another’s body language. I need to chill out. This is a shared belief.
In addition to this, I sometimes shut myself off from others and zone out into my own little world. I’ve become very antisocial in the past couple years, and it’s not something I’m happy about. Les and I talked about this, and she told me how poisonous regret can be, and that I honestly need to stop wasting time dwelling on it, because I’m wasting time enjoying this beautiful place while I do. She’s absolutely right.
“So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past.”
It’s always been my favorite quote from my favorite book, none other than The Great Gatsby. It represents the fact that as humans we are so unable to let go and move on from the past. It reminds me that I need to keep looking forward.
We went to Golden Bay yesterday, which was absolutely relaxing and beautiful. The water was so clear. Jonathan brought his goggles and we all got to see the schools of fish right beneath our feet. Leslie had her waterproof camera and we were having so much fun with it, taking pictures underwater. I was laughing so hard that that, combined with swimming to keep afloat in the deep waters, I got an excellent work out, I’m sure. It was truly an amazing trip, I’m pretty sure we’re going back in a couple of days before school starts.
I’m looking forward to it. And to Blue Lagoon, Comino, all the other sights. I’m looking forward to school. To traveling on breaks. To more nights out with all my new friends.
I won’t be drawn back by the current any longer. There’s no looking back.
*Pardon the spread eagle underwater picture. I’m apparently not very good at posing gracefully underwater.